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Thoroughly sickened...

I got a letter today, from the Chairman of the Board of my last school. And you know what I think? I think it's tough when you get dumped on, when a confidential letter is shared behind your back. Why are people so spineless, why can't they communicate, how hard is it to just pick up a telephone and discuss something? I know I mentioned the other day how gutless net people can be when it comes to picking up the phone and just talking, how they can say all the horrible things they like in writing but can't talk to you honestly. But really, what the hell is wrong when the people I worked with just down the road can't even do that? I wrote in confidence to the Limited Statutory Manager, as he asked me to, and he has shared my letter with the Board of Trustees. And OMG that includes the Acting Principal, about whom I was less than affirming.

I have just vowed to never speak of my last school again, to never visit it again and to never be involved in a campaign to help the school again. It's over. And I've told them so. I said, Rest assured that I, your strongest defender and campaigner for SCS out in the community, won't say another word, for or against the school, anywhere.

As far as I am concerned, I never worked there and it is a blank in my life. Now I am moving on. I can't change the world. I'll just have to get on with other things just as pressing.

And on that note, rave over, this LJ outlet used, I shall move along. Writing, housework, piano lessons here in an hour, all that stuff to do...

*sigh* what a waste of energy so many things are, so many people are, so many jobs are... I just wanted a better world...

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humascot97
Mar. 28th, 2007 02:19 am (UTC)
As far as I am concerned, I never worked there and it is a blank in my life.
Just make sure it's not a blank on your CV. That wouldn't look so good for my favorite birdie.

I'm here if you need to rant/rave/bitch.
natesmountain
Mar. 28th, 2007 02:25 am (UTC)
I'm just so sick of people not having the guts to talk about things properly. No abuse, no arguing, just talking honestly. It seems to be a thing so many people think they don't have to do any more. And of course, yet again, I'm disappointed by the actions of a man...

I have put Beethoven on the stereo VERY LOUD!
greenpizzazz6
Mar. 28th, 2007 02:24 am (UTC)
People suck.

I just wanted a better world...
Noble wants. Keep on trying for a better world, because it's about all we can hang on to.
natesmountain
Mar. 28th, 2007 02:27 am (UTC)
I want to keep trying for a better world but I keep coming up against walls. What the hell can I do? Just keep trying, I guess, as you say. And sure, I know I irritate people too, but that isn't the issue here ;)

Maybe you're right, many people suck. But many are so wonderful, it's frustrating to say the least!
greenpizzazz6
Mar. 28th, 2007 02:34 am (UTC)
What the hell can I do? Just keep trying, I guess, as you say.
Yup. That's all you can do. Keep on trying, and hope that by the time you leave this planet, you have impacted it in some kind of positive way.
natesmountain
Mar. 28th, 2007 02:48 am (UTC)
I used to have this saying... I'll have to look for it, it was about if just one heart in the world beats a little easier because you were there, then it's worth it... I think it's worth it, huh
greenpizzazz6
Mar. 28th, 2007 02:54 am (UTC)
Yup. All it takes is one and then it's all worth it.
vivh
Mar. 28th, 2007 07:10 am (UTC)
I'm sorry, really sorry that that has happened to you, it is really unfair...Why did the statutory manager do that? if he thought you made points the Board needed to hear he should have asked your permission first - sigh!!

All you can do is move on... but do keep on hoping for a better world, and working for it... it's costly and painful at times but we have to keep trying!!
natesmountain
Mar. 28th, 2007 09:56 am (UTC)
Thanks, Viv. I don't know why he did it, I guess he doesn't have to care about me as a person any more, and maybe I made some good points he wanted to share but it still shouldn't have happened like that. I'm so disappointed.

And yeah, I want a better world, so badly that it aches tonight. It's like there's just too much pain in the world and I can't bear it all. There's so much good and so much love, but there is all this awful hate and resentment and pain and suffering as well. Some days I wish we could start over. But that's not realistic. I guess I'll keep trying and hoping for better things. I think it's important to try and be optimistic, huh.
moth2fic
Mar. 28th, 2007 10:47 pm (UTC)
He shouldn't have done it whatever his reasons. It was completely rude and insulting. I'm so sorry you have been treated this way. Try to look at all the good things in your life - your family and friends, and your writing. It's hard, when someone upsets you like that, but try!
(((hugs)))
natesmountain
Mar. 29th, 2007 12:59 am (UTC)
Yeah, thank you, I'll try to focus on the good things. I guess it's shaken my faith in people I thought I trusted, yet again, and he's meant to be one of those really Christian people too *snort*

I just want to put my head in the sand.

And did you know that ostriches apparently don't do that...
(Anonymous)
Mar. 29th, 2007 10:06 am (UTC)
So be an ostrich! Don't put your head in the sand! Survey the vast horizons and stride forward leaving the fools by the wayside.

But you are bound to feel hurt for a while - just don't let it overwhelm all the good things in life!
moth2fic
Mar. 29th, 2007 10:07 am (UTC)
That, of course, was me! I tried those drawing progs but both of them crashed (I shall use the scanner or Paint) but I didn't realise they had also thrown me out of LJ!
natesmountain
Mar. 29th, 2007 10:11 am (UTC)
I thought it was you, even though it's a different IP address from your other one!

Sorry the drawings didn't work out.

And yeah, it was just too many things yesterday and this morning I didn't like how I felt about too many things from yesterday! And *wails* how many fools do I have to leave behind to get where I'm going?! *sigh* just have to rally round. Steve thinks I ought to go to the Privacy Commissioner about them sharing my letter, but I think I'll just walk away.
moth2fic
Mar. 29th, 2007 10:17 am (UTC)
Depends how strong you feel. I tend to agree with Steve, because if they share yours they'll share others and it's a stand on other people's behalf. But the stress might be too much to ask of yourself. You've already done a lot in that particular arena.
Also, you have to weigh up the likely outcome. I had a case against my last boss for bullying but if I'd won I'd have had to go back and work for her - so I decided not to bring the case.
natesmountain
Mar. 29th, 2007 10:22 am (UTC)
-But the stress might be too much to ask of yourself. You've already done a lot in that particular arena.
Yeah, see, I don't think I could face any more self-satisfied, back-stabbing, idiotic, deluded, incompetent teachers right now. I think I'd go nuts. I think I'll just let them shrivel up and die. Or whatever happens there. I think I don't care any more. I sure as hell don't want to care.

And you and Steve are probably right, they need to learn about good practices, and that's probably why the place is in dire straits now. But it's not my problem any more, I think.

And I can see why you wouldn't want to bring your case.
moth2fic
Mar. 29th, 2007 11:18 am (UTC)
Not your problem any more! Definitely! Keep thinking that way!
natesmountain
Mar. 29th, 2007 11:24 am (UTC)
Yeah, *sigh* me and that place are done like a dog's dinner. Over. Kaput. Finit.

I was never there. And it feels good. Thanks heaps for your support and on that note, I shall go to bed... with my laptop!
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