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Hi, team, sorry I'm not being very there for you all - I guess what I did last week, clearing out all the old past friends and their emails, hit me harder than I expected, and I couldn't sit here without feeling an awful sense of loss for the passing of things past. So I sat in the car while the team warmed up for Asher's soccer game on Saturday morning and thought long and hard about what it was that still ached so badly and I guess it's because each one of them won, leering triumphantly at the pathetic Takahe. And the key has to be that there was (to use a phrase from Phil Gulley) no bridge building, just wall building. I hoped I didn't care, but I never seem to stop caring. But I'm older and a whole lot wiser now. I'd do things differently now. So, that's what's been bubbling away at the back of my brain this weekend and keeping me off the net. I'm endeavouring to not care any more. And I think I can do it. Watch this space. I get better at it every year!

And enough of that. I got a fantastic postcard from moth1 *thank you* and I have one sitting here for her, and despite having 4896890438 copies of her address in odd places around the house, I can't find one. Help, Moth, when you're back from España, so I can send you the postcard I wrote in the bush in Taumaranui *g*

I am really enjoying teaching the girls at school, and I think I'll actually miss them when I go. I know most of their names now. I am enjoying the job itself, too. I don't think I love running a family and working full time, but it's going okay at the moment, if I don't expect any time to myself, any time to shop or any time to write. It's just so stimulating all the freaking time, every fifty minutes with a new class! And the Staff are really talking to me now *g*

I thought briefly I might not even ever get back here, then my dear friend Andrea (Hi there, Andrea!) sent me an email and amongst other things said she was popping by Nate's Mountain, and it was a bit of a kick up the backside for me to get over my insecurities and get on with more life. I am certainly doing fine during the day, when I'm busy busy busy with work. The last few Ethics lessons we've been grappling with a long powerpoint about art and sexual morality, and that's been amazing. I feel like I could be an art critic one day... not! One of the girls reads the notes aloud, I try to point out things, and the rest of the girls add their ideas while I manage the discussions! It's enlightening. Tomorrow I have to teach about Calvin to the Year Elevens. How on earth did people decide to be Calvinists? Then again, I'm doing cults with my Year Thirteens, and today we Googled a few - there's an incredibly biased and unprofessional site in NZ on cults that made the girls snort with derision at the author, we did a little analysis on the Exclusive Brethren, and we also looked at Heaven's Gate. Hmmmm. How do people get sucked into that little mind-numbing number!?!

The other night, our retired priest, Fr Brendan, completely buggered up our First Reconciliation meeting although we coped despite his interference, and on Sunday I was chatting to our visiting priest (JCjnr is on holiday) and he said that Fr Brendan once gave three consecutive Sunday sermons, twenty minutes apiece, on the evils of masturbation!

That topic arose in the powerpoint class today, too, and one girl said, in response to a comment on the screen, 'Is the church against masturbation?' I shrugged and said it was, and another girl cried out, 'Oh, but it's so nice!' before realising what she'd shared aloud!

I'll leave you with a quote from my Phil Gulley, and his address last week about religious tolerance, which was, incidentally, all about wall building and bridge building. Heh! *snort*
-I grew up Roman Catholic, but became a Quaker at the age of sixteen because I wanted to kick off the traces and live it up, take a lap around the track at full speed. So I became a Quaker. That is somewhat revealing of my theological ignorance at the time, that I would perceive Quakers to be the gateway to excess and riotous living. Hee!!

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margaret_r
May. 7th, 2007 12:53 pm (UTC)
I'm very glad you are enjoying your teaching and getting along well with the staff now. Your classes do sound fascinating and the girls seem to be very bright and enquiring. I'm sorry to hear that you have had trouble in the past with "friends", but it seems that the ones you have now a real friends and maybe that's what counts.
natesmountain
May. 9th, 2007 10:35 am (UTC)
Thanks, it sure is a fun job most of the time.

-I'm sorry to hear that you have had trouble in the past with "friends"
Thanks again! Yeah, it hit me hard over the last couple of years, but I guess I've learned a lot and that has to be a good thing.

- it seems that the ones you have now a real friends and maybe that's what counts.
OMG YES! I have the most wonderful friends here on Nate's Mountain, I am so incredibly lucky.
hannahfmuk
May. 7th, 2007 01:15 pm (UTC)
Ooh, the Exclusive Brethren! There's a big group of them in the area where my mum teaches so they often get kids from the families in their school. The kids aren't allowed to watch tv at all, so when the classes watch educational videos, the Exclusive Brethren kids have to go and sit in the hallway and do work sheets on their own which sucks for them and means they miss out on learning stuff.

And the girls have to drop out of education once they're 16, which my mum and her colleagues thinks is a dreadful shame - partly on principle but also partly because the girls tend to be so well-brought up that they're very disciplined at studying and so get great marks and could go on to do great things at college & university.
natesmountain
May. 9th, 2007 10:38 am (UTC)
-The kids aren't allowed to watch tv at all, so when the classes watch educational videos, the Exclusive Brethren kids have to go and sit in the hallway and do work sheets on their own which sucks for them and means they miss out on learning stuff.

Yeah, it's weird. Funny thing we discussed today, that one of my students asked, how can a religion that has no tv or radio maintain an official website?! Which they do LOL!

-And the girls have to drop out of education once they're 16, which my mum and her colleagues thinks is a dreadful shame -
Gosh, yeah, donations last year alone to my friend's high school which is exclusive brethren exceeded $900,000! That is a lot of money to pour into school education, while refusing higher study.
vivh
May. 7th, 2007 05:35 pm (UTC)
Glad you're still here! - missed you over the weekend...

he said that Fr Brendan once gave three consecutive Sunday sermons, twenty minutes apiece, on the evils of masturbation! LOL!!! - I hope JCjnr isn't away for long!!!

The job does sound like great fun, have you heard how the job applications for your post are going?
natesmountain
May. 9th, 2007 10:40 am (UTC)
I'm here but wow, it's been a journey, and time is something that disappears through my fingertips like sand at the beach, sorry.
I'll try to do better.

JC jnr gets back Friday for the weekend, when we have First Reconciliation, then there's a priests' conference for a few days!! Argh!

The job is great and no one is saying if they had more applications! I'm on the edge of my seat. I'd like to last the term, for the job, the experience, the money and the challenge! Does that sound dorky? It is a lot of interesting fun at the moment! But it's too much of my time. Although I'm learning...
moth2fic
May. 7th, 2007 09:39 pm (UTC)
I shall email you the umpteenth copy of my address and watch impatiently for a postcard.
By which you'll have gathered we're back.
I have posted about Barcelona - 2 entries so far and one more to come, but you can wait till you have time (what's time? I hear you saying) and get to them all at once!! Lots of pics.
You are allowed to change your LJ name and you are allowed to go to the lighthouse but you are not allowed to abandon us altogether.
Your girls sound lovely! I'm fascinated by the idea of teaching them about cults. I've never been able to understand how people get sucked into those but I suppose if they have very needy personalities and nobody ever warned them they'd be vulnerable.And of course some people are brought up in them and then have to make an effort to get out. Scary.
natesmountain
May. 9th, 2007 10:43 am (UTC)
I'm saving your posts for the weekend I think so I can really read them properly. They look great! I'm so glad you're back in one piece.

-You are allowed to change your LJ name and you are allowed to go to the lighthouse but you are not allowed to abandon us altogether.
I shan't. I love you all too much *g* and this is a good and useful reflective time for me, which you all have to suffer through!!!

-Your girls sound lovely! I'm fascinated by the idea of teaching them about cults. I've never been able to understand how people get sucked into those but I suppose if they have very needy personalities and nobody ever warned them they'd be vulnerable
My friend's very kind and stable daughter was sucked into one, within about a fortnight of her big OE (overseas experience). Her parents could tell she sounded funny on the phone and they had to go get her... actually it was Manchester! OMG!
moth2fic
May. 9th, 2007 12:57 pm (UTC)
I don't suppose Manchester is any less dangerous than other big cities and I think big university campus towns attract cults. They have a ready pool of converts in kids away from home/friends/etc. I read an article that suggested the basic appeal was that they appear to offer friendship if someone is lonely and I can imagine a first big OE being lonely as well as exciting!

I will never forget an experience I had when I was in my early teens and the 'Church Army' visited our school church/chapel. They sucked a lot of us into a commitment ceremony and despite it being 'mainstream' Christianity I felt very exploited afterwards. My father was still alive then and we talked about the psychological pressures that can be used by movements like that and how to spot and avoid them. If I'd been slightly older and on my own the result might have been different. This is not to denigrate the work that particular movement do, just the way some of their recruiting is carried out.I can see that cults can be much more dangerous.
natesmountain
May. 10th, 2007 09:58 am (UTC)
-I will never forget an experience I had when I was in my early teens and the 'Church Army' visited our school church/chapel. They sucked a lot of us into a commitment ceremony and despite it being 'mainstream' Christianity I felt very exploited afterwards.
Wow. Imagine our Moth marching with the Sally Army!
I felt a similar pull when I was first teaching, and there was a Sunday afternoon prayer group that used our staffroom. I was invited along by a priest friend, and it was a big group of mainly families, all very dedicated Catholics just looking for more. They were very warm and welcoming but they soon became too tied up with our lives, wanting people like me to join the women's group, a family group, all sorts of things, excluding outsiders. I decided it was too claustrophobic for me!
moth2fic
May. 11th, 2007 03:05 pm (UTC)
It was the 'Church Army', which is a 'militant' offshoot of the Church of England, and not the Sally Army! But the techniques were similar, and to my mind questionable. Teenagers in particular are very open to suggestion and find it hard to believe they could be at risk of manipulation.

The prayer group that tried to take you over was at least working with older 'recruits'. But yes, the sense of excluding outsiders has to be a 'warning'!
greenpizzazz6
May. 7th, 2007 10:42 pm (UTC)
That is somewhat revealing of my theological ignorance at the time, that I would perceive Quakers to be the gateway to excess and riotous living.
Reading the first half, I was thinking just that! Quakers don't strike me as being especially "full speed!"

I'm glad you didn't end up leaving us. That right there is proof that the they you speak of didn't really win. As time goes by, it gets easier.

and another girl cried out, 'Oh, but it's so nice!' before realising what she'd shared aloud!
Awkward moment!!!!

As I hear more about your classes, they sound more and more interesting. Makes me look forward to my World Religions and Ethics classes coming up this fall.
natesmountain
May. 9th, 2007 10:46 am (UTC)
-Quakers don't strike me as being especially "full speed!"
Heee! I'll say! All that sitting about in silence can be good occasionally but I think I'd want something more!

-I'm glad you didn't end up leaving us. That right there is proof that the they you speak of didn't really win. As time goes by, it gets easier.
Yeah, maybe. You might be right. And it shouldn't be about winning or losing, it just feels like it sometimes. You're a wise bunny *g*

-Makes me look forward to my World Religions and Ethics classes coming up this fall.
Oooh, you're doing that? Great! I love teaching about World Religions. Ethics too, although I'm not so good at the philosophy side of things ;-)
greenpizzazz6
May. 9th, 2007 02:14 pm (UTC)
Oooh, you're doing that? Great! I love teaching about World Religions. Ethics too, although I'm not so good at the philosophy side of things
Yeah, I have them right after another, so that should be a very deep couple of hours! I find phikosophy interesting, but I'm not very good at it. I prefer logic and clear facts!
natesmountain
May. 10th, 2007 07:05 am (UTC)
Well, I seem to have a lot of textbooks at hand so let me know if you want to know anything LOL!
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