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Journey north again

So. I'm going north in the morning. But I should still be able to get to LJ now and then... ? depending on my mother's mood. I'm taking the children with me, of course. It's pouring with rain, so that should be cosy for us with seven or eight hours in the car. We had a glorious weekend, with hot sunny weather, so it's odd to be cold and wet again today. Good old spring in Wellington. Like autumn in Wiesbaden, fine-wet-fine. We've been talking about that a lot lately because I'm teaching church architecture again and out have come all my photos of churches in Limberg and Mainz. It's so sad. And so beautiful.

We might head off on a road trip afterwards, see where the road takes us...

Some of my flist are stopping posting because of troubles. I hate that because I kind of have times when I wish things didn't have to change. I hate to see people go. Too many left me in my last school, and I want to hold onto people. I notice I get really upset when people leave my new school. But then I look at my own life these last few years, gone from part time ESOL teacher in a poor, tiny State primary school to full time Director of Religious Studies in a bigger Catholic secondary school. From three children in one tiny Catholic school to three (almost)-teens in three different colleges. Two in Catholic, one in *gasp* Presbyterian. I've gone from having two parents to one. And I've become different in other ways, more confident in myself but sometimes frightened of the job I have taken on. The way I deal with people has become harder, I've noticed, I can push people away and try to convince myself that I don't care. But I'm still irritatingly soft inside, still loving and still pretty vulnerable about most things. I guess since I'm all grown up, I'll always be like that. Maybe I can blame a pretty bizarre childhood?! All those things contribute to what we are as adults. But on the whole, things are reasonably good, just ...challenging? Is that too euphemistic? I'm not sure *g* maybe, but I wouldn't want to say my life is hard, I have a great life. Busy. Frantic. Exhausting. But worthwhile, very much so. And LJ is just an integral part of that, I can't walk away from it. From you.

So I'll hang in here for now. Whatever you're up to, huh. You've been good to me.


( 7 comments — Leave a comment )
Sep. 29th, 2008 12:27 pm (UTC)
Good journeys,enjoy the trip.
Sep. 29th, 2008 06:23 pm (UTC)
Thanks. Nice to see you... well, see your words *g*
Sep. 29th, 2008 01:46 pm (UTC)
Hello! Just wanted to say that I put something in the post for you last week - I suspect it'll probably arrive while you're away now. Darn. Sorry for not posting much on your lj recently - I've been making a big switch away from electronic communication to actually writing cards, postcards and letters, which doesn't really work when trying to respond to someone online on the other side of the world... guess I didn't really think that one through properly...

Anyway, have a great trip and take care of yourself.
Sep. 29th, 2008 06:26 pm (UTC)
Hi, Hannah, sorry I didn't get to your last post, I really wasn't feeling well and just couldn't do it. I'm okay now though *g* and it's great to hear from you. I'd love to get mail from you. I always plan to 'go home and write someone a letter' but I rarely do it. There are always too many other pressing matters to attend to, like washing, dishes, food and homework, or just driving people around! And by bed time I think, darn, failed again!

But it's good we can try to stay in touch, I threw your address into my bag last night in hope that I'd put pen to paper while I was away...

Love your icon *g*
Sep. 30th, 2008 08:53 am (UTC)
If you get this before you go, have a good trip!

It's raining here, too!

It's interesting watching your life change and your reactions. You cope very well with an enormous amount of pressure! I'm glad it seems worthwhile, too! Keep on hanging in there. *g*
Sep. 30th, 2008 02:47 pm (UTC)
I hope you have a great trip up north and find time to relax and enjoy yourself along the way... I would love to stand beside Lake Taupo or lounge in some hot pools just now - even in the rain!! I will be with you in spirit as you travel through that wonderful country!!

So much has changed, in your life and in mine, some changes for good, some less so... but when we strip away the masks we wear to protect ourselves we remain very much the same! - you are in my thoughts and prayers, whether on lj or not, always!! *g*
Oct. 5th, 2008 08:29 pm (UTC)
- but when we strip away the masks we wear to protect ourselves we remain very much the same! - you are in my thoughts and prayers, whether on lj or not, always!! *g*
And the same goes for me, I just wish I could see you again! One day... and yeah, a heap has changed for us both, and it's hard to carry on 'as usual' sometimes, knowing so much is so different. But I do think of you all the time, and I'm always throwing Chris into my prayers at school.
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