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Searching for zen

It's my ex-sister-in-law's birthday today. She is a South African. She hated me for a long time, I think because as a teenager I identified her anorexia when no one else was prepared to confront her, and she eventually gave up speaking to most of my family for various reasons. I hope she has a good day nonetheless. I think she is in Darwin.

I have had a hair cut and made some decisions. Will be more organised. Will take my job by the throat and wrestle it into submission, mainly by being more of a totally-prepared-freak kind of teacher. If I can manage that with Mission Day coming up in three weeks. Will throw out more stuff in the house. Will cook more Asian veges for the children to eat. We're starting with Shanghai cabbage tonight... Will be calm and co-operative with my friends and more cool to those with whom I am not friendly. Might stop writing. Wasting my time and getting nowhere fast. Will be tidier. Will try to be ready for each new day. Will not complain, it doesn't do anyone any good. Will waste no energy resenting others. Will strive to find the best in other people. Would maybe even be a Quaker if we had any here - maybe just need more reflective time with God.

*shrug* let's see how all that works out, huh? I'll revisit it all in a few weeks. See how I am getting on *snort* with myself.


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Apr. 22nd, 2009 10:15 am (UTC)
Gosh, there are no Quakers where you are? I sort of assumed they'd colonised the whole planet.
Apr. 22nd, 2009 11:59 am (UTC)
Well, after you said that I went aGoogling, and there is a Quakers in Aotearoa (that's NZ) organisation! With meetings in most major centres. Interesting. Maybe I'll wander along one day! But I never met a Quaker that I was aware of *g*
Apr. 22nd, 2009 01:20 pm (UTC)
Oh, I did not see this before replying.
God bless you.
Apr. 22nd, 2009 08:58 pm (UTC)
And God bless you, too! If I ever went to a Quaker meeting, I'd really be hoping to find a bunch of YOU there!
Apr. 23rd, 2009 01:50 pm (UTC)
I definitely recommend getting to a Quaker meeting, just to experience their spirituality first-hand.

And yay for your icon!
Apr. 22nd, 2009 11:43 am (UTC)
Some good intentions there, but also some drastic ones! Guess it all boils down to - take each day as it comes:-)

Keep hanging in there.
Apr. 22nd, 2009 12:00 pm (UTC)
Yeah, some drastic ones. But maybe one day... that will change of course. Some things you just can't stop. No matter what happens to you, huh.
Apr. 22nd, 2009 01:18 pm (UTC)
Good for you for identifying the anorexia and saying so. That my dear friend is what is called an intervention. You did that out of love and concern, regardless of the reaction she had towards you.

We could all use more time to be reflective with God.

As for being a lone Quaker, please see these:


The later link is to Ohio yearly meeting and they establish meetings in other countries too. They have one in Greece formed by a man who wanted to be Quaker, but no meeting was available. Look into associate membership.

Apr. 22nd, 2009 08:57 pm (UTC)
You're such a thoughtful bunny! Thank you!

How many days of brain toil and sweat to go now? 8? Thinking of you
Apr. 22nd, 2009 09:04 pm (UTC)
haha 8 to go my friend! I got an e mail from the prof of my math class, and I got 88% on that test I was fretting about!
Apr. 22nd, 2009 09:07 pm (UTC)
OMG you're a freaking genius! Apart from the understanding that you ARE a genuis and therefore ought to stop fretting about results. Congratulations. That means you have that paper now, doesn't it?

*is jealous*
*hugs you anyway*
Apr. 23rd, 2009 01:52 am (UTC)
HUGS back thanks :0)
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